Well I woke up this morning with a bit of dread in my heart. I was afraid to look out the window because the weather forcast had predicted rain ... again. However, as I peered out my back door I saw not rain and clouds and gray - but sun and clear blue skies. Hooray!
The weather is one of Ed's favorite weapons against me. As soon as he sees a gray day he bombards me with negative, condemning thoughts. He likes to use words like pathetic, useless, worthless, shame, fat, ugly, disgusting, lazy, stupid ... as if the rain had anything to do with me being any of these things ... ?!?!?! But usually I accept them as being connected and spiral down into a dark and lonely place.
Today it is easy to laugh at Ed's attempts to bring me down - its sunny afterall. My vision is clear. But tomorrow -- if its raining -- I must remind myself to look to the Son-light for this clarity and not let Ed convince me of things I know to be totally unrelated and untrue.
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Will keep you in my thoughts as the rain comes the next couple of days and He provides you the Son-light you need against Ed.
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