I have been fatigued lately ... not getting to sleep, not staying asleep, waking up REALLY early ... missing my naps. Just not good. And then there's the weather. Seems silly but I am SO brought down by the gray skies and drizzle. If there were thunder and lightning I think I'd be a BIT invigorated by it ... but this droning drizzle is so draining. (note the alliteration (: not bad for first thing in the morning)
Last week my counsellor (whom I will hereby refer to as "B") told me about Radical Acceptance. I may hate my body and its size/shape but I have to choose to accept it as MY reality FOR NOW. I cannot stay in a place of wishing it away ... that's when Ed can lure me into his twisted 'solutions'. But if I can acknowledge my disgust with myself, THEN choose to accept it FOR NOW I will be able to stay in recovery ... trusting recovery to bring about the desired changes and freedom.
Guess I should practise this attitude with the rain too, eh?
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Who is like me?
No one!
I was uniquely created.
It’s a good thing!
The world would not want another me
That would be to overwhelming
Consuming.
I am: Ashes
Scars
Fears
Disappointments
Lies
Cut
Shame
Good thing there’s not another me.
The beauty of this world would disappear.
12-11-08
I sent you a message on FB. Praying for you. Deb xx
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