Learning to Stand

I am beginning to use my armor! The armor of God that was given to me when I entered into covenant with Him. Its kind of amazing, the difference, when you apply even one or two pieces. This week has been one where I have been tempted again and again to withdraw into numbness(via bingeing etc) and isolation and disassociation. So much going on and a lot of emotions to deal with.

I am a highly sensitive person which, in part, means I am acutely aware of what others are feeling and have the ability to feel much of what they are feeling too. I am learning to accept this as a gift, one that forces me to my knees and insists I rely on God to not only handle 'their' situations but also sustain me through the extra burdens of feeling their pain. (does that make sense?)

Anyway, I have been putting on the belt of truth and the shield of faith daily this week and have found that even in the face of great temptation; I am able to 'stand'. And from my learning in the covenant bible study I have found a security in believing that with God as my partner that's all I really need to do ... stand ... and let Him fight the battles for me. Wear His armor and trust Him to take care of the rest. And even though it requires a lot of 'willing submission' on my part ... to trust this process, to trust my covenant partner ... it is proving to be a mighty, mighty combination.