Today I was smothered in a cloak of fatigue and an acute 'drug headache'. On Monday I had run out of one of the drugs I'm supposed to take to augment my anti-depressants ... I was too busy and fatigued to get myself to the drugstore to renew my prescription. Also I was hoping to be able to just drop that particular pill as it has a few unpleasant side-affects. However, the headache that plagued me today as a result of stopping the drug so abruptly was intrusive enough to convince me to refill my meds and get back on track. I also wasn't doing so well emotionally or mentally (aside from the headache) so I guess maybe I'll just have to suffer with the side-affects a little longer.
My poor children. I only got out of bed at meal times today to make them a little something to eat. The rest of the time I just stayed in bed. Not a stellar 'mothering' day, I'm afraid.
I have such a hard time not beating myself up over days like this. Ed pounces right in there with all his 'helpful criticism' too. I feel very defeated. Not at all like one who is standing up under the armor and protection of God - my covenant partner.
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Dear Lord I come to you asking for Your Armor to surround Amy right now. She needs your protection for evil and negative thoughts from Ed and from Satan too. You know where Amy's heart is - it is with You as her covenant partner to face Ed and Satan down so they do not have control over her life like they have had this week. Now that she has the meds required for now, provide her with the strength to find the joy of the day and have more of those good "mothering days". May she feel the love and prayers from her family and friends as she faces this difficult time in her recovery. I ask all these things in Your Son's name. Amen
ReplyDeleteI love you Amy. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Take care.