los't again

I think its probably just the 'low' after the 'high' of Amanda's wedding this past weekend ... but I'm certainly down in the dumps again. Woke up today with a 'wondering' mind. Wondering if I'm on the right path, if I'm worth anybody's love, if I'm making any headway with Ed, wondering what God can do with me when I'm always sick or tired or depressed. After a phone call from Garron, in which he prayed over me, I realized I had the answers to most of those questions and just had to choose to Believe them. Easier said than done some days.

I have a skype session with B this afternoon. But I don't feel like talking. Don't really feel like talking to anyone. I suppose that is when I need to talk the most. Which is why I forced myself to post on here today. Yay for me, I'm taking baby steps forward.

Anyhow, there it is. Maybe I'll have more to say after my session.